#An excerpt from Dreamer Hello's diary. (25 February 2016)
What’s life without dissatisfaction, failure and heartbreak? What’s the point of rank one if you have never known rank zero? Upon spending some quality time with my soul, I find myself in one such state today when I’m superficially alright and content but find deep dissatisfaction, immense pain and a heartbreak that has been continuing for a long time. I don’t know what should be kept close to heart: past success or present failure; bygone darkness or future happiness? It all means so much and also seems futile. This introspection is both promising and confusing. Life has never been unkind to me; not even for a second. And at any moment even if it did seem unfair, I eventually found out that things did happen for my best interest.
What’s life without dissatisfaction, failure and heartbreak? What’s the point of rank one if you have never known rank zero? Upon spending some quality time with my soul, I find myself in one such state today when I’m superficially alright and content but find deep dissatisfaction, immense pain and a heartbreak that has been continuing for a long time. I don’t know what should be kept close to heart: past success or present failure; bygone darkness or future happiness? It all means so much and also seems futile. This introspection is both promising and confusing. Life has never been unkind to me; not even for a second. And at any moment even if it did seem unfair, I eventually found out that things did happen for my best interest.
Now as I sit in my geography practical
class, pondering upon the things I did wrong, the things I long for, the
moments I want to live again, the roads I’d never prefer going back to, the
people I want around, the people I want gone, the things I want accomplished,
the targets I’ve missed, the life that I’m living – I see myself grow. My weaknesses
and limitations; my flaws and wrongs are what define me. People love me for my
preferable qualities and people dislike me for my undesirable traits but there
is one person who accepts both my fortes and flaws with the same vigour and
that person is the one I see when I look into the mirror.
So this whole existence is after
all to make my soul and body do things to the world that’ll remain even after I’m
gone. My soul grows and I learn, I learn and I share and thus I contribute to
the everlasting love prevailing in nature and the world and thereby create an irreplaceable
place for myself in the history of the world.
